Saturday, April 12, 2014

Tonight You're Perfect

Should I believe in the world Momma
Should I give up and hide or should I stay and fight
Should I believe in the rules Momma
Tell me if I should run or learn to shoot a gun
I don't know what to believe Momma
Yeah I'm down on my knees I'm begging please
Help me back on my feet Momma
'Cause I need someone to believe believe believe in

Tonight you're perfect
I wanna fall in love with stars in your eyes
Tonight you're perfect
I wanna fall in love but only for the night
Tonight you're perfect Tonight you're perfect
Only for the night
Tonight you're perfect Tonight you're perfect
I feel perfect too...

I did something for the first time this week.... I ran 6.25 miles.  It took me 1:04...that includes the few piddly seconds it took to get the treadmill up to speed.  I CAN top that time, I paced myself this time to make sure I could complete it.   I felt so good when I was done. After I get done running the four 5k races I have signed up for, I need to find a 10k to run. I couldn't imagine my day getting any better....but it did.  I am participating in a 21 day fitness challenge at my gym.  Basically for 21 days I do different exercises and fitness related challenges.  That day I decided to GULP find out my body fat percentage.  One of the very kind trainers used the calipers to take measurements in three different locations on my body...three times for accuracy. He was amazed when I told him that I used to weigh 276 pounds. I'm still just a little shell shocked to find out my number is 16.9 % body fat.  This is a much better gauge of what I am doing in the gym than the scale.  I look in the mirror and don't see a fit person most of the time.  But that number indicates that I am mostly muscle..and most definitely fit.   My goodness, I had to hit the Google when I got home and make sure it was good.  

My goals now are going to work on dropping that body fat percentage and not worry about the number on the scale.  And to really see the new me...the badass chick in the mirror instead of the old me that I still see a lot of the time.  I'm a work in progress.  One thing that I have become confident in lately is...myself and my ability to do anything my heart desires.

Monday, April 7, 2014

Keep On Keepin' On

You gotta keep on keeping on,  Even with the feeling
That you're gonna keep losing, You gotta come back strong
Oh Oh
He spent most of his youth, With his head down
Chubby, fugly, awkward walk, And not much of a talker
He was good at setting bad examples, But bad at math, crunch time
He kept it moving like the lunch line, Working on his salad bars
And fruit punch lines, His simple triplets had his English teachers tongue tied
As he starts pirouette for perfection, And Darren Aronofsky black swan reflection

He plucked feathers from his back, And watched his bottom limbs bend forward
Toward something more, he wasn't sure
He plucked feathers from his back, And watched his bottom limbs, bend forward
Toward something more....

Fun weekend here. Dallas, Nick, and I started out with some family bonding time....a 5.44 mile run.  I should have planned better because there were some massive hills.  My legs were burning.  Dallas does not prefer to run that far....noted.  I do not prefer to loudly coach her to move her buns..but I did.  Nick on the other hand...that kid is a beast.  He and I will be doing some 10k runs in the future.  I'm proud of both of them though, those hills were my bad planning..and now their little leg muscles aren't so little. I have registered for 5k's and the Offroad Challenge which will be at least a 5k for every weekend up until my nephew is born.  Starting at the end of April up until the end of May, I'll be running every weekend.  Most days my kids will be joining me.  It does some time take my breath away  when I think about how much I have changed not just physically... (I CAN RUN 5 MILES WITHOUT STOPPING AND STILL BREATHE!), but mentally.  I run for fun, hell...I pay to go run with people.  The excitement and rush of finishing a race and being around other like minded people is something I cannot explain.  

My boys had a karate shiai this weekend.  Carter wanted to rush the weekend away until it was time.  He was hopeful and almost certain that he would go up enough in rank to get a new belt.  And let me tell you, their dojo doesn't just give rank away.  These kids have to earn it.  My babies must be doing something right.  Well, I know they both are...I've been told. They have both been in karate for a few years now and do not miss.  They train hard!! They have stuck it out and are learning quite a bit and showing a massive amount of responsibility in the dojo. But we weren't expecting two new belts with stripes for extra rank.  We now have a green and a blue belt in the house.  Carter did not want to take his belt off to go to sleep.  Along with the new rank came a chance to break a board.  They were happy happy happy boys.  That makes for a happy happy happy Momma.  

Monday, March 31, 2014


I spend my money on the regular miracles
Just like you, like me, like everybody else
Up on the sun, lookin' sad and beautiful
Just like you, like me, like everybody else

When it gets loud, I turn it up
Shake it like a bad girl up in Harlem
When it's too hot, I light it up
Oh, light it up yeah, smoke em if you got em

It's been a wonderful and physically exhausting week here.  I have pushed myself to what I thought were my limits and my body has responded by not failing me.  I am the strongest most fit I have ever been in my entire life. If I can think it, I can do it.  I ran every day last week except for rest day.  My rest day....funny..I ran so much around town taking kids here and there!!  I ran 5 miles Thursday in addition to my class at the gym.  I need to get up to 6.25 miles to be totally happy.  But, I KNOW that will happen now.  My speed has increased as well.  I giggle a little bit was just weeks ago that I told people, "I'm not a runner." or "Oooh, I don't run."  We are registered for a few 5k's in the near future...I need to look for a 10k.  That is going to be my challenge.  And then I have that  Offroad Challenge in May...very stoked!

The kids have just two months left in school.  They are ready for Summer Break.  I don't know that I am!  The boys have a Karate Shiai coming up and are very excited to see if they go up in rank.  They both have been working very hard. 
Our vacation plans have been finalized, we are just now getting little things ready.  I had to buy new luggage...enough for 6 people.  I am cheap cheap...but I finally bit the bullet and got some on Amazon.  We are picking up new swimsuits and fishing gear and memory cards...and the list goes on and on.

My baby...nephew...will be here very soon too.  Right around the third week in May.  We are all well aware and anxious for his arrival.  Little Prince!  It's been so very long since we had a tiny little baby in the house.  I am curious to see my brother as a Daddy.  I know he's going to be an excellent one. 

Saturday, March 22, 2014

I'm Only One Step Back From A Heart Attack

It's just what you do
It's not anything new
But I want something else
I want something I can feel when I'm alone
When I'm on my own I peel the layers back
I'm only one step back from a heart attack
Singing I'm only one step back from a heart attack...

Lately I have had a series of revelations, victories that have enlightened me..... regardless of what I thought before, how low my self esteem shitty people made me feel... I am not that person anymore.  I am a girl on fire.  I can do absolutely anything that my heart desires.  ANYTHING.  I absolutely amaze myself on an almost daily basis now.  I am not saying this to brag...because I am truly amazed with what my body and a little bit of willpower can accomplish.  Be it adding an extra riser to jump squats in Body Pump class or  running at least a 5k in addition to my 2 or 3 hours of workouts everyday....this girl is doing it.  I'm challenging myself and loving the changes I am seeing not just physically but mentally.
 Those kinds of changes are contagious.  My babies have been running too.  They are preparing for our 5k, and are eager to sign up for more.  I can't tell you how my heart swells seeing them running up the street little pack of healthy kids.  I don't ever want them to suffer the physical or mental effects of being obese.

Last week, I won a yurbuds prize pack from Mother Pumper on Facebook.  I was very excited because those earbuds will come in handy with my daily runs!  Not to mention the Mother Pumper tank...I loved it.  The back says, "Do these muscles make me look phat?"  She posted the kindest words with a transformation photo on her Facebook, they brought me to tears.

Check out the yurbuds™ winner and fierce Mother Pumper Mandy's inspiring transformation. Once morbidly obese, now 125 pounds lighter, leaner, and stronger. Check out her toned arms! She is a new runner so the yurbuds are going to come in very handy with her new fit hobby.

Stories like this make my day! Congrats on your awesome success Mandy and best of luck with your newest fit adventure and all your fitness endeavors. ‪#‎badassmotherpumper‬

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Top Of The World

Funny, I turned all my I'm gonna be's into I do it's.

At this time next year I'ma have enough to buy the whole damn thing 
Yeah, I'm doing pretty good right now but I swear just wait 
I'ma take you to the top top top of the world
I'ma take you to the top top top of the world

Spring Break is almost over, and can I just say I am happy about that.  We had a good time...but  these kids argued and fought over stupid stuff all week long.  My girl is a social butterfly and fluttered everywhere, so I had no problems with her.  But boy oh boy..these boys.

I ran EVERY SINGLE DAY this week.  I have bruises from busted blood vessels on my calves.  Battle scars. I am starting to learn that I can do almost everything I said that I couldn't.  I hit the gym hard every day and can tell.  Between two and three hours if not a little more every single day.  And, I am getting results.  My body is sore and bruised...but I feel strong and happy with the effort I put in this week.  I am back at it today after a day of rest yesterday.

We have a few races/events that we have already registered for.  One next month that Nick and Dallas will be doing with me.  I'm very excited about that.  I'm pretty sure that Nick will outrun me....and I'm pretty excited about that too!  I said I am running, I never said I am running fast.  I am really really excited about the Biggest Loser Offroad Challenge.  It cannot get here soon enough.

Vacation planning has started.  Tickets have been purchased.  Our beautiful vacation house on the bay has been reserved.  The kids and I are looking forward to visiting our family, hitting the beach, and fishing.  They always love the fishing.

Monday, March 10, 2014

It's Your Heart

Hey heart, on the road again, moving on, forward
Sticks and stones won't break the bones
They're in the car, on the highway
It's so magical, feeling, that no one's got a hold
You're a catalyst to your own happiness you know
This is your heart, it's alive
It's pumpin' blood
It's your heart, it's alive
It's pumpin' blood
And the whole wide world is whistling
And it's whistling....

My girl and I ran our 2nd 5k Saturday night, The Foam Glow 5k at LaGrave Field.  And whew it was a cold and rainy start!  About a quarter mile in though, we felt wonderful.  Scattered through the course and at the finish they had giant cannons spraying glow in the dark foam.  We really enjoyed running at night seeing downtown Fort Worth lit up and the Trinity River...which at times looked like a sidewalk.  It was dark out there!  Dallas kept telling me to slow down and claims I didn't slow down.... I believe I did.  I am SUPER proud of my girl.  She kept my pace the entire time.  She even sprinted into the finish line with me.  Matt even enjoyed the DJ and foam cannon at the end.  I was so pumped I couldn't believe it was actually three miles.  Dallas assures me it was.  In the starting corral selfies were being taking all around, Dallas took the liberty of photobombing....hilarious.  Another thing I thought was funny, about a mile in the course I heard a little boy about six or seven years old say, "Daddy, carry me."  I was so glad I wasn't Daddy!!  I prefer to have my kiddos run beside me.  We do already have a couple more events lined up.  Both Nick and Dallas will be running with me.  Nick said that he is training for a 5k, and then when ahead and ran 3.25 at school on Friday. He will probably outrun me!  I'm not much of a runner... but as I am running I always think to myself.. I am actually doing this AND this is something I couldn't do at 276 pounds...just keep going.  Makes me smile... A LOT.  

The BEFORE pic

Dallas in one of the Foam Zones along the course.

Black light area

Crazy chick, we had so much fun.

My running partner, couldn't ask for a better one.  Very proud of her.

I signed the hubby and I up to do The Biggest Loser Off Road Challenge at the Spartan in May.  I am EXTREMELY excited to do that obstacle course in the mud.  Every day I go to the gym is an opportunity to train for this.  To get just a little bit stronger, a little bit faster.  I am so ready to challenge myself and do something new like this with Matt.  This will be a week or so after my Birthday, I cannot think of any better way to celebrate.

Saturday, March 1, 2014


I've started a few things in the past week or so to help get ready for swimsuit season...AND because I was feeling like I was on a downward spiral with my healthiness.  I needed to get back on track.  I ordered the Polar heart rate monitor that I have mention previously.  This allows me to know exactly what type of calorie burn I am getting in each class I take at the gym or per mile on the treadmill.  I'm trying to get 3 hours of working out most days.  I want 1500 calories burned...But some days I have to settle for less and will only get 1000 calories gone. Some days I get more!!  I also increased my 5k to 5 miles on the treadmill.  I will say that is quite a difference right there.  The 5k is cake in comparison.  And it is very ironic that I compare it to cake.  Next, I have for a period of time stopped eating carbs, sugars,and dairy.  I've put my body into a fat burning state of ketosis by doing so.  I am kick starting my metabolism and cleansing my system by doing the Advocare 10 Day Herbal Cleanse.  I have had no adverse effects from this.  It isn't the harsh cleanse of old days.  I'm not running to the bathroom every five minutes.  I haven't run to the bathroom once.  That's what people normally associate with "cleanse".  If anything it has only solidified my resolve to stick to eating clean because I purchased it through a gym buddy and want to get good results.  Lastly I've started using My Fitness Pal to track my food and activity.  It's a wonderful website or app that you can enter all of your info in and will help you calculate your calories needed each day based on what your goals are.  I am seeing wonderful results this first week, and hope I continue to do so.  Resolve don't fail me now!!  Today is a rest day..and I'm going to enjoy it.  Jogging around the neighborhood with the bulldogs doesn't count as exercise does it?

Excuse my tanning bed photos, they have a full length mirror.  Day one of the cleanse.  We'll see  if this profile pic looks better next week.  You can see from my face I'm not happy about taking this pic.

Same day, I guess I didn't mind taking people to the gun show.